27.09.2010 Blog Privated Soon..

Back to blog!

Basically, I just want to say that I'm gonna private my blog soon..

This is because:

- I think my blog shouldn't be so open although it's a lotss / nothing in it.. 

- Feel that the teachersssss will stalk it one day.. ><

- Trying not to get any problem with school..

- Wanted to know if anyone are really reading my blog?

- Doesn't want stalker to stalk around.. =P

Leave me your email to those interested..

I think that's all.. :)

Today, 

Pissed with someone..

Not pissed la, but I didn't know how to describe the miserable feeling..

Angry? Hate? Jealous? IDK =.=

I feel I'm not appreciated..

No matter how good I try to get along with friendship, at the end I'm nothing to you..
The way you talk me,
the way you speak to me,
the way you reply to me,
is different with how you treat others..
I feel so unhappy..

Maybe you will think I just want to live on my own,
You think I don't mind at all..
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But, why I'm always the one?
I treat you good but you treat me in a opposite way..

I ask all of you, who doesn't want a friend?

When you need me, you will come to me..

When you have others, you will leave me..
This is the worst part!

I doesn't know where should I complain to..

I feel so down and unhappy this morning..

But I don't dare to sound out..

I act like normal..

I act like nothing happens..

All this doesn't mean I didn't feel anything..

Sometimes I will hide but sometimes I won't..
I will think how important am I in my friend's heart?

Why I cant like others who can go school happily everyday?

Why I cant like others who turns into happy when they meet their friend?

Maybe it is my own problem..
Anyway, I still hope you will treat me like last time one day..
 Aiks! ><

Next, 

Today was Yee Won's birthday..
Huixin made her a nice birthday card with lots wishes..

HAPPY BURTHDAY, BUDAK! 

Hope all your wishes come true and score well in SPM :)

Found a meaningful quote:

Treat others the way you want them to treat back you..

- END! -

24.09.2010 I'm Sorry / I Love You !

Yo!

I'm back people :)

Have appear/disappear for about two weeks..

First, it's because I'm rushing for my UNCOMPLETED homework ><

[the delay of holiday's homework and during absent's homework]

Second, my beloved grandpa passed away last week! T_T

Third, it's not free to blog BUT i'm in facebook =S

But now, I'm free to blog..

Wanted to blog something but doesn't know where should I start from..><

Okie, from my beloved grandpa..

I think this is the really really first time happened to my closest family member..

I finally can feel the sadness..

Actually I'm kinda regret because of something..

A day before he passed away, I promised myself to visit him..

I feel like wanna to stick to him..

I doesn't know why..

Maybe I finally understand that old people or grandparents should be taken care very well..

But, unfortunately..

That evening, I felt dizzy and I went to sleep..

When I'm awake, it's already late in the evening..

So I planned to visit him the next day..

But that midnight, while I'm sleeping in the middle of the night, I heard a very loud sound outside my room..

I didn't dare to walk out, but I heard my uncle and auntie's sound..

And my brother came in my room and told me that my grandpa has just passed away..

My heart feel so pain, full of regret that night..

I couldn't sleep till the next morning until I went school..

I still go to school because it's the first day of school after the raya break..

I know it's a important day as we'll we receive our exam paper..

On the same afternoon, I went to the funeral parlor..

I saw my grandpa lying on a table..

Again, that feeling came back.. ><

Haiz..

Anyway, I'm sure he's very happy now..

I wish him has a wonderful and happy life in another world..

No matter what, I'll keep him in my heart forever..

To:

Grandpa,

I'm sorry for not visit you on that day, I'm sorry ><

I Love You! 

11.09.2010 Who am I?

Yea, 

Back to blogging..

As I promised in last post, I'll not hide a single feeling anymore..

Recently, I found out I'm so ODD from others..

I'm so SAME/DIFFERENT from my friends..

Do they hate/ignore me because I do not join them frequently?

Do they hate/ignore me because I leave them when I'm with him?

Do they hate/ignore me because I love to keep to myself?

Do they hate/ignore me because I WILL/WILL NOT talk when I'm not in mood?

Do they hate/ignore me because I love to be emo?

I do not know..-.-

Somehow, 

I hope I'm not different from them..

I hope I would not being ignored again..

I hope I can join them for any activities..

I hope I would not be left out..

I hope I would not be the UNINVITED guest..

I hope I would always be in their circle..

But, now, I'm totally NOT ><

You guys might be thinking she ownself think this and that..

But, this is what I really feel now..

Someone told me..

There are only TWO types of friend in this world..

One is those who will leave a footstep in your heart..

One is those who will walk away from you..

I hope I'm those who will leave a footstep in everyone's heart..

I DO NOT deny..

I'm a person who will get angry easily..

I'm a person who will jealous easily..

I'm a person who is very sensitive..

I'm a person who will think if I'm correct, I'll do that..

I'm a person who like to speak out without thinking..

I'm a person who like to joke without thinking..

I'm a person with a complicated mind..

I'm a person who love being pampered..

I'm a person who love being cared..

I'm a person who love to get attention from my friends..

I'm a person who love my friends to share their problems with me..

This is the real ChingYeng! ><

Of course,

He is important to me too..

He is not only my friend and also my lover..

From him, I've learned many many things..

He taught me to become a happy gal all the time..

He taught me I shouldn't be so lazy for my future..

He taught me what is love..

He taught me how important is trust..

He taught me how a girlfriend should behave..

He taught me to differentiate good and bad things..

He taught me how to take care myself..

He shared his problems with me..

He cares for me..

He pampers me..

He loves me..

Thanks him for coming into my life..

You made me laugh when I'm unhappy..

You care for me when I'm not well..

You encourage me when I'm lazy sleeping during exams..

You woke me up early in the morning..

You accompany me when I do not want to sleep early..

You worry of me when I'm late back home..

You always put me before you..

Maybe this is the reason why I love you..
AND 
SERIOUSLY
YOU'RE NOT MY TOY! 
YOU'RE NOT!! ><

I Love You!

P/s: This post is not wrote to offense anyone..

It just the feeling in my heart..

If anyone get offended, I'm sorry..

I do not mean it ><

TaTaaaaa !

09.09.2010 BLOG UPDATED!

Hi, everyone :)

Good evening xD

My last update was on the 4th of Sep..

Although just passed 5 days, I miss my blog like hell..

I feel wanted to update it all the time..

Because blog was the only place I can fill my happiness, sadness, and every single feeling NOTED without hiding!

I wanted to NOTE every single things happens to me..

I wanted to NOTE every single feeling of me..

I wanted to NOTE everything without hiding..

I've read through many of my friend's blog..

I feel they're so real..

They blog every single real feeling of them..

Last time, maybe I'll scare of this and that while blogging..

I'll care of everyone's feeling..

I'll care of my reader's feeling..

But now, I'll still care but I'll blog every of my real feeling..

I WILL NOT/WILL hide a single thing anymore..

If anyone of you reading this feel you can't take it, you may leave now :)

The wednesday, which means yesterday :)

Wake up in the morning and went for tuition..
...

Then, I went to fetch SiWen and went SanMin to play badminton..

Although I just play a few matches, I had a pigu pain the next day.. Muahaha~

After badminton, we went to the PLAYGROUND :)

It was like so many years I didn't go there since standard 4 or 5 if I'm not mistaken..

Yea, I do went there once this year with one of my friend but we just walk by..

At first, my mood was totally bad honestly.. I admit!

Then, I saw something like exercise.. 

My friends were trying and I wanna have a try too..

So, I went to play it and this make me happier..

I started to become active..

I went to play lik CHILDREN :)

I enjoy playing there..

Took lots of photos..

Let share it :

:)

Try to fit my butt inside the small little toy? xD

Like children :)

The exercise thing..

Emo`ing..

Love this :)

Never forget this car.. The owner's parking = FAILED^^

(joking, no offense)

-End-

04.09.2010 My Saturday :)

Yo Yo Yo!

Konichiwa :)

Back to blogging..

The most first thing gonna blog is about the movie I watched today..

Went for two movies back-to-back this morning with my fren and of course HIM :)

Before that, on friday, I went to bought the tickets with chiayee..

Guess what?

We bought 20 tickets for both movies..

BANGGA BETUL! [paiseh, 1st time neh!]

                                   

Bangga! :PP

Erm, bought 7 tickets for PCK [Phua Chu Kang] for :

Me

Him

ChiaYee

HuiXin

JiaLing

Vanessa

KahLock

Rated it : 6/10

Because I felt the storyline is quite weird.. 

I didn't know what is the moral value for the story..

Haha..

Paiseh for those rated it vry high..

No offense to anyone.. :)

Then, another 13 tickets for The Descent 2 for:

Me

Him

ChiaYee

HuiXin

JiaLing

Vanessa

KahLock

SiWen

PuiLin

SiowWei

PeiFen

Vivian

PeiJiun

Lisa (she bought it last minute :))

Rated it: 8.5/10

Nice~ Although it's scary.. Seriously..

I love those movie with blood :P

Special, bo bian.. xD

Till here..

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01.09.2010 :)

Hohoho~

Today, 01.09.2010..

A brand new month ><

It means it's going nearer to SPM..

But one thing that I felt happy..

My TRIAL is over..

I can have a big big rest..

I can have enuf sleep..

I can be PIG :)

I can do what i cant do during exam..

For example, watching drama non-stop..

I do enjoy watching tv during de exam..

But of course i cant lik 24/7 watch it non-stop la..

But now, perhaps I can :D

I wanna finish Ps man, The Mysteries of Love and Down With Love in the shortest time.. 

Muahaha~ *evil laugh* xD

Besides, planned wit fren to go for a movie..

Anyone interested?

Mari join mari join xD

Next next,

Gonna post something funny in my blog..

Is actually either a situation or conversation xD

Conversation:

Between me, siwen and chiayee..

One day, three of us sit together after arranging in table in the exam hall..

Suddenly,

Me: 
I edited my blogskin.. nice bor?

Siwen:
 Yaya, pink colour de..

Chiayee:
 Mine leh? mine also pink leh..

Me:
 Ya meh? paiseh, forget jor..

Siwen: 
Yaya, but chingyeng's pink brighter..

Me:
 Yaya, i sumore put pic tim..

Chiayee: 
She yesterday onli teach me how to put pic xD

Siwen: 
Har? how to put de wor..

Me:
 I say i say..

Siwen:
 How o?

Me: 
Why wan tel you? [indirectly, paiseh..hahahhaha]

Siwen wit zhadao and angry face..

Me: 
Sorry la, play onli.. tel you.. use photobucket lo..

Siwen:
 what is photobucket?

Gosh, really laugh die me.. 

Me and chiayee laugh de most loudest one..

But I'm so lucky, only chiayee be blamed by de teacher :) 

[no offense o, juz joking ya :)]

Next next, 

Situation:

Me and chiayee on de way to ttn..

Chiayee was riding motor..

Suddenly..

Chiayee: 
Wah, dis ppl dunno how to ride car geh mou.. Open signal yao dunwan turn wor..

Me:
 Ppl pengguna yang berhemah ma.. Dun so lou hei :D

Chiayee: 
Wanna cut her liao.. Chingyeng, c dis aunty.. Rmb her face ar..

Me:
 Okay! *Muz rmb dis aunty's face*

Chiayee pass by de car..

Me: 
Omg! You know who? CHUI VENN ar!!

Chiayee: 
GG! 

And both of us laugh lik nobody's business on de bike..xD

Till then 1st ba..

Actually got alot more but I juz rmb dis for dis time..

Will be continue ya.. 

Stay tunned! :)